I need to figure one out. I spent the day with Tracks, and that very awkward silence is still kind of there but doesn't feel so overpowering. Where as I had been kind of avoiding places that I had frequented before, we went to the empty house where I liked to have lunch and sat there looking over the city. The city is changing. I know everything changes, it is part of life, but being able to see it laid out in front of me didn't brighten my day as much as I thought looking out over the city would. And don't get me wrong, the freeway did need to be redone and having an extra lane should help with traffic. And I hadn't even known that they had connected the two sections of the 210.
We didn't really talk but I was able to think. Sitting next to Tracks strengthed my resolve to go back to work. That sounds bad, it wasn't that I want to reduce the free time I have but it would help me feel like I'm not just sitting about moping. Its like when I was unemployed. Just sitting around moping and without direction did nothing for my self esteem or mood.
I think I'm going to suggest we head up to the turn off we went to up in the mountains so we can look at the city lights and stars tomorrow night. That should be just as peaceful and something I like just sharing between the two of us.
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