A Disconnect

So. As it turns out my memories are accessible like video files. This is one of those things that is apparently standard among robots but no one thought to tell me. I'm not really angry or anything just a little annoyed. And not really annoyed either at that. It is more at the situation, I guess. No one told me because no one thought to tell me. It is like that assignment where you have to describe how to make a pb&j, no matter how hard you try you always leave out a step. Something you consider so basic you don't even think of it. Getting the jar of peanut butter from the cupboard or opening the bag the bread is in. This is one of those things.

I'm not mad at anyone. Its just that... this isn't the first time there has been this disconnect. When I asked about blankets when I was first given a room none of the bots seemed to understand, I had to explain their function and even then there was still the "but you don't need one now". And there is the disconnect with Tracks, still haven't figured out how to solve that. Lord knows I'm trying though. I just wish I knew what to talk about.

Due to this rather low point I haven't actually been keeping up with my goal to get to know a bot each day. I've been avoiding spending time with anyone with metallic parts the last few days. I spent some time with Michaela and obviously I talked with Doctor Westborough, I would get in trouble if I didn't at least meet with him every other weekday. But other than that I've been on my own, thinking. Lots of thinking. There is a lot I have to figure out, have to plan, by the end of the week so I can let my boss know if I'll be coming in to work Monday, when my sick leave runs out. I've got an idea, to use my holoform and go back to work but it is difficult to keep that running for extended periods of time. I'd have to make sure that I can park right next to my office window since it makes it easier.

But that isn't much of a solution, there are a lot of variables that could mess things up. If my boss needed me to work through lunch. Or work late. Or notices that I'm not actually breathing. Or runs into the hologram and notices I'm not warm or my clothing has no texture.

But I can at least try and make it work for as long as possible and look for distance work or something.