Almost Natural

My boss is a little annoyed with me since I emailed him the day before I left that he'd have to schedule calls. I told him it was because my phone coverage is terrible but it really is because I have to keep my cell phone without power. Probably a little overkill but I'm doing all I can to not be tracked. By now my absense has been noticed at the base and the fact I disabled my comm and all trackers has probably got them worried I've been kidnapped or unhappy that I've defected. This is likely the most important time for me to keep under the radar. After a few months I will quite likely not be their top priority and won't have to worry so much. After a year or two they will likely not care anymore. I'll still have to be a little careful since they might be watching my old haunts but by then maybe I'll finally be ready to let go of those and have created a new home.

The one upside is that I am still am to keep in contact with all my friends who don't know about the giant robots. I can't mention where I am but I can keep up on their lives and chat through facebook and keep emailing mom. It is kind of nice to pretend like I never met any of the Autobots. That I never got drawn into their war.

A Sense of Freedom

Two days have passed and the fear of being tracked down and scolded for my wandering is starting to subside. It is being replaced by a wonderful sense of freedom. Of relief. I thought of going to Las Vegas but the fun in that town is definitely for humans and not someone the size of a car. So I went up the California coast and drove around San Francisco yesterday and went further north to Oregon. I still need to get some work done on the database project and touch base with my assistant to make sure her digitizing work is on schedule so I'm going to stay here in Oregon for another day or so until that is all sorted and then go explore Washington. I've never been there but it looks so lush and green.

And part of this escape is going almost completely off the grid. I can't go completely off since I have to stay connected for work and a little bit of tech around should help camoflague me.

I think this may work out.

The Uneasy Night Before Something Big

That is what tonight is. I disabled my beacon earlier after leaving the Autobot base and came home to make sure the house is clean and ready to be locked up. I'd love to be able to just hide out here and be left alone but I know that someone will think to drop by. It would probably be Mikaela or Tracks. Mickaela wouldn't say anything for awhile I think but it would just be another instance of annoyance for Tracks that I ran off home again. He has been worried about me. That is why I had to wait for awhile to set things in motion, he has been keeping tabs on me. And I will miss him, I still enjoy spending time with him I just need a little break. This break from the Autobots will likely be permanent, it just isn't the life I want.

I just don't understand why they were so desperate to revive me. It was always one of those things I had discussed with my family that if I was in an accident or something to not keep me on life support. This Cybertronian form is like the most perverse version of that. I haven't been revived, I've been trapped and forced to watch my former life without being able to return to it.

Figured Out Work

I've figured out how to disable the tracker beacon I was issued. I'm going to slip off the grid for awhile, I was able get myself on the new database creation and cataloging project at work. They were happy to have me since I can coordinate the digitization of our older materials since my assistant in ILL has little to do anyways. And since all the programming and brainstorming is distance based I can go wherever I please as long as I meet deadlines.

It is a wonderful thing really, those few days of working through the holoform were taxing. There were too many chances for me to slip up eventually.