Friends

After reading my last entry Doctor Westborough says I should try and spend more time with my fellow giant robots. And I know I should. Barring something unfortunate my lifespan is now apparently a long freaking time. Way longer than humans. If I want to avoid the inherent sadness of losing those I become close to then I am going to have to build friendships with the Autobots.

I'm already friends with Tracks, he's a nice 'bot, but I don't know what to talk about now. I feel like I've lost something with him, like I want to keep our connection but I don't really feel it. And I don't know if he feels the same way. We go on drives and stuff but I don't have my work to talk about anymore. I don't go out and do lectures or visit museums anymore. It is another thing I am going to have to figure out.

I knew Bumblebee before, not very well but I knew him. Since I am spending more time with Michaela I am spending more time with Bumblebee and Sam by default and he's pretty cool. He's kind of become a breakfast buddy when he stays on base actually. Well, if two mornings count as a breakfast buddy.

But I haven't really talked much with the other Autobots though. Mostly in passing. Just like I haven't really talked with my human friends since the incident. I've been on facebook, and twitter but the idea of a phone call makes me want to wretch. I'm not sure I could keep up my story. It is pretty weak and won't last much longer. I can only be sick while visiting rural Eastern Europe and therefore unable to fly back for so long. That doesn't even solve what I am going to do about my house and bills and job. I am running out of sick leave, I only have three weeks of vacation and sick leave left. And thank god I had only used one or two sick days leading up to this so I had a ton saved up. I still have to figure something out though. I don't want to give up my house. Going back to work might also help keep my mind busy. Or at least my hands. Something.